extreme difficulty

I love the anonymity of the net. The chance that *you* the reader will read this. It must be a voyeuristic pleasure. Did i catch you off guard with that sentence? I bet I did.

It always does for me whenever a blogger directs his/her audience directly.

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One of the things that used to keep me artistically motivated, (despite the fact that I didn't exactly enjoyed it at one stage) was a certain online community of artists. I won't say which group, but it has funnily enough motivated me in the past. Stranger things have come to pass.

While I enjoy trying to motivate myself to do better, to improve myself in one way or another it's becoming stingingly apparent how inappropriate my past behaviours towards goals like this were. Self awareness is a big fat burden.